Well, Christmas and New Years have come and gone and once again I am baffled as to how another year is beginning anew, but I know 2012 will be full of many wonderful things to come, and I know it will be filled with good food, an outpouring of love and a fresh start for us all.
And since this is the time of year when we all make those resolutions that at first burn so bright they seem possible but soon decay into the muck and melting of snow, I have decided NOT to make any resolutions.
I am instead setting forth upon a journey to find happiness and love everyday and not bog myself down with all the "what ifs" and "whys." and worrying. If I have learned anything from 2011 it is to expect the unexpected, because no matter how hard we plan and configure our lives into perfectly sculpted statues of what we think our lives should be, the destructive hands of time and fate will crumble that statue into a million shards and we will be left sweeping up the pieces, crying over our losses and asking the always nagging questions of "Why me? Why now?" But I have to believe that we can't ask those questions, that we can't become fretting, anxious human beings full of fear and decaying hope. I believe that we need to embody every downfall, every mistake, and even every right decision, as the threads that in the end, will be stitched and mended over, and over again, creating a life that is uniquely and solely our own.
Forgive me for this departure of writing about baking and cooking and friendly foods that my body will not reject, but with the start of 2012, and my reflection of 2011, I can't help but begin to make a conscious effort to just accept each day as they come, and to bask in the blessings that fill my basket. How can I not do this, when I am loved by a man who will love me until the end of time and whom I love with every fiber of my being When I have a family who will never abandon me and whose support knows no boundaries. When I have a roof over my head, food to nourish me, a soft bed to sleep in and a loyal, little dachshund whose tail can't wag fast enough every time I walk into the room.
So in the end, I suppose I do have a New Year's Resolution, don't I?